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Saturday, May 13, 2017

On 2:49 AM by A Bucket of Grace   No comments
I was blessed to listen to a talk few weeks ago about depending on God and here are some of my learnings.

The Bible says " Blessed are the poor in spirit"

What does having a poor in spirit means?
I humbly depend on God instead of myself.
To be poor in spirit is having humility.

Do we depend on God? At all times?

Yesterday, we took our kids out to celebrate Kyle's birthday. The place we went to was full of fun, activities and it was like having a study tour.

For my kids last activity, I took my 2 kids to have some painting while Kyle was playing basketball and Arnel was watching him.

I asked how long the acitivity will take and the lady said 15 minutes so I said I will just come back.

I left and went to grab Kyle's CD and to take our bags to the ground floor near the basketball stadium.

When I went back to fetch my kids. They were gone.

I panicked instantly and told the girl in a condascending tone...I said I will be back!

Felt like going crazy that time.

I immediately called my husband to inform him that I lost them.

Then I asked one of the workers if they have seen my kids. It was easy to describe them since they were wearing identical clothes.

The worker said...they were taken at the Customer Service.

I ran to fetch them and from afar I saw my kids. In a proud tone, I said...Come on kids, let's go!

My kids ran to me and I asked what happened. They were both telling their version of the story at the same time.

The men in the customer service area approached me and I said " Why would you let them out when their fetcher was not yet around. They apologized and assured me that this will be look into.

While I was talking to them God was telling me...What are you doing? Will they see Christ in you with the way you are acting?

And it hit me...I failed! I was not blesseable :(

It gave me the urge to apologize immediately. My tone changed and I said " I am sorry I know it is not your fault"

I also went back to the lady in the art session to apologize.

It was not their fault. I should have made myself available after thesession. I should have waited. But my mind was clouded with doing other stuff instead of waiting.

My response was also not blesseable I panicked, instead of praying and resting in God's defense.

My husband told me that he did not bother to walk outside the stadium when he heard my call. He continued to watch Kyle. It was not because he does not care but he rested in God. He said that they cannot go out on their own and they cannot be taken because they have a security bracelet. I was convicted.

I heard God's voice asking me, What would Jesus do? What should you do?

And how I realized that I was not responding the way Jesus would do.

I did not have a blesseable heart. The way I acted did not bless others.

I was controlled by the circumstances not by the One who controls the circumstance.

I was not poor in spirit, despite of my failure I had a proud heart when I picked up my kids at the customer service. I should have been thankful because my kids were safe and they took care of them.

I could have depended on our ultimate Savior! But instead I allowed my emotion to control me.

To depend on our mountain mover versus the mountain.

I praise God that He is full of amazing grace. When I fail at times his mercies are new each morning and He allowed me to apologize and realized my mistakes.


This taught me that whenever we look or ask for blessings I need to look at my heart first and ask myself...Do you have a blesseable heart?

Psalm 146:5 " The Lord blesses everyone who trusts Him and depends on Him"